Have you ever had something happen to you that challenges parts of you in a way you weren't expecting?
Yeah, that's happening right now.
I moved down to Cincinnati for two reasons. One, because my career was being sabotaged by fanatic psychopaths who had created a work environment that was honestly abusive, and I needed to get out for my own mental health. Two, because I was in a failing marriage and I was making desperate attempts to make it work.
After four years of being in Cincinnati, I have had the brunt of my creative power drained by jaded HR reps and people who show no interest in taking a risk with raw talent, simply because I didn't go to fucking Moeller High School and don't have a relatively worthless degree in broadcasting.
Let's ignore the fact that EVERY radio station in Columbus was COPYING my work because they couldn't come up with anything original, with the exception of WNCI, who probably paid some big firm to write their modernized jingles.
I've spent the last four years working at a fucking bank. I spent SEVEN years breaking new ground in audio at a tv/radio network that was so entrenched in it's bullshit that it overlooked my talent over pure nepotism.
I love Cincinnati in many ways, but those ways can be fickle. For one, I like that it has hills, where Columbus was flat. Big fucking deal? For another, I have made GREAT friends after my divorce, and while I love my friends dearly, they aren't paving the way for me to pursue my creative passions in the most part, with the exception of Starmaker Machinery.
End rant, I am going to bed now so that I can be up in time for my training session at PNC, which does not involve cutting clips, scoring music and mastering in 7.1.
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Wow. I read your post after this and so I'm taking it with the grain of salt required when reading a drunk post, but...this struck a nerve with me.
ReplyDeleteI forget how much you and I have in common in coming to Cincinnati to make something work. But I feel you a million percent. The people I know and love and hang out with and [sometimes] do creative stuff with are part of the reason I haven't offed myself yet.
But still, it's not enough, and I have creative ambitions that get neglected. I think it's a common thing plaguing young creatives who have a reasonable amount of talent - we want to do it all. Right now.
For what it's worth, I'm glad you're here, and I'm glad to know you. And if your dream takes you elsewhere, you know you have dozens of people here that will support that.